My entry for the MAMA scared stiff contest.
When I think back to my childhood and my fears there are three that stand out the most in my memory.
The first fear was the hallway in my great aunt’s home. It was pretty long and always dark and gave me the creeps. When you looked down it, you could see my great aunt’s room which was a pinkish color. The light was always off which made the pink coloring darker, somewhat somber, and frightening. The whole room just looked eerie for some reason with that color. Probably because it (and the hallway) was always empty and deadly quiet when I would come over. Also there was this small light that was always on near the floor(Probably a night light) and you could see it from down the hall. There was just something about seeing that one little light glowing in that room combined with the dark of the hallway that gave me a creepy feeling. I was always afraid I’d see something spooky in that hallway and I hardly ever went into that room.
The second was the whole Bloody Mary myth. When I first heard other kids/ friends talking about it and the experiences they/others have gone through when playing it....yep, that did it. For quite some time I would get spooked when I had to use the restroom at school or home because of those mirrors. Especially at school when the restroom during the times when it was completely empty. Sometimes I'd even fear that just thinking her name would make something frightening happen. Darn you, Bloody Mary.
The biggest fear of all though for me was: the dark, of course. I always hated going into dark rooms(Still do at times). I think I was always afraid of seeing a scary thing in the dark. Not a person or animal, just a.....thing. Like an indescribable shadow wraith in the dark with glowing dot like eyes. If I had to go into a dark room, I would often look away while trying to flip the nearest light switch.
For the contest, I wanted to go with a closet since that seemed to be the choice that came the closest to representing my fears(Never went into an attic or basement when I was little and I was fine with my bed). But instead of just drawing a closet, I decide to put it in a scene that would have some of my fears coming out of it, and some surrounding it. Like a symbolic representation. The green hallway represents my great aunt’s hallway. For some reason whenever I would think about it, it always came out a dark green in my mind (Probably because the carpeting was green). The room at the end represents my great aunt’s room, hence the pink coloring.
The shadow creatures inhabiting the room represent my fear of the dark. Actually these creatures are close to what I was afraid of seeing in the dark. The one glowing eye of the creature in the closet represents the little light that I would see glowing in my great aunt's room.
The door to the closet is actually a mirror, which symbolizes my fear of the Bloody Mary myth. If you look closely, you’ll notice another shadow creature pressing up against the mirror from inside it.
In a way, this hallway is like a small part of my subconscious that leads to my other old fears which reside in this room. There’s no doorway, because these fears will never be completely forgotten(Gotten over yes, but not forgotten). There's a closet yes, but since the door is a mirror, there is no lock to keep the creatures in. The shadowy hands on the floor and walls are these fears reaching out...trying to drag me back into them...back into those old fears.